The one thing I love about blogger is that no one reads it. It's just a personal diary and everyone who reads it, doesn't actually care. At least I hope not.

The thing is, I hate Rebecca. She's perky, and pretty, and nice, and just happy. All the time. She has great friends too. And the reason why people hate, is because of jealousy. I want that. I want to be nice and pretty. I want to be happy. But I'm much to negative to ever be any of those things. My friends are great, I admit, they have their flaws, but they're wonderful. But I don't have a group of close, close friends. The ones I do, I rarely talk to or move away. Karma just hates me too.

The thing I hate most about her? People like her. Everybody just loves Rebecca. My best friend, likes her. And don't get me wrong, I don't like him. At all. It's just, once again, jealousy. No one likes me. I keep trying to point out all my flaws, work on them. But that just makes me more depressed when I see how everything just crowds down on me. I'm not even perfectly imperfect. Because being perfectly imperfect is just another form of being perfect: which nobody is. Therefore, yes, my hair, not so nice. My eyes? Boring brown. My height? bit too short. My attitude = sucks. Well, to me at least. I have a lot of people that I talk to and hang out with. But I don't want a million people. I want that one person that I can talk to all the time. Someone who won't judge my mistakes and just help. But that person doesn't exist. Because that person is me, and everyone's unique, therefore, there is no one like that other than me.

I hate jealousy.

Oh, my, goodness.

So I suppose I have no followers now, which is cool, cause I haven't posted in way more than a year. Well technically, less, because I made my tumblr in April of last year. Now, I was kind of curious to see what had happened to this curious page...it's almost kind of sad. Nothing's the same as it was a year ago which depresses me.

However, there are things I have to admit to you guys before I completely go. Me and Sunny's names are NOT actually Maddie and Sunny. Somewhat obvious I suppose. We were just to young with over protective parents to actually give out real information. Now however, we're not. Things have changed, as I said. We're even applying to highschool's now which brings our stress levels to the ultimate max. btw, please pray for us to get in

Now, about my tumblr, as you can find below, that is the current link. I don't plan on changing it any time soon. If you're looking for answers, look there. I don't know why, but I feel safer telling strangers about my life than actual people I know. I guess I feel as if you guys will judge me less. Sunny's blog can be found at www.blowfishie.tumblr.com, and its pretty awesome. I have more follows now than I had in years of blogspot(yes, I feel very loved). 102, to be exact.

I will continue posting here, just for the heck of it. This is indeed more a poetic writing site than tumblr where we mostly reblog.
And now I will finish with a poetic ending: .....wait no....nevermind, writing the thing about continuing to write here made me lose my train of thought....

....shit....