The one thing I love about blogger is that no one reads it. It's just a personal diary and everyone who reads it, doesn't actually care. At least I hope not.

The thing is, I hate Rebecca. She's perky, and pretty, and nice, and just happy. All the time. She has great friends too. And the reason why people hate, is because of jealousy. I want that. I want to be nice and pretty. I want to be happy. But I'm much to negative to ever be any of those things. My friends are great, I admit, they have their flaws, but they're wonderful. But I don't have a group of close, close friends. The ones I do, I rarely talk to or move away. Karma just hates me too.

The thing I hate most about her? People like her. Everybody just loves Rebecca. My best friend, likes her. And don't get me wrong, I don't like him. At all. It's just, once again, jealousy. No one likes me. I keep trying to point out all my flaws, work on them. But that just makes me more depressed when I see how everything just crowds down on me. I'm not even perfectly imperfect. Because being perfectly imperfect is just another form of being perfect: which nobody is. Therefore, yes, my hair, not so nice. My eyes? Boring brown. My height? bit too short. My attitude = sucks. Well, to me at least. I have a lot of people that I talk to and hang out with. But I don't want a million people. I want that one person that I can talk to all the time. Someone who won't judge my mistakes and just help. But that person doesn't exist. Because that person is me, and everyone's unique, therefore, there is no one like that other than me.

I hate jealousy.

Oh, my, goodness.

So I suppose I have no followers now, which is cool, cause I haven't posted in way more than a year. Well technically, less, because I made my tumblr in April of last year. Now, I was kind of curious to see what had happened to this curious page...it's almost kind of sad. Nothing's the same as it was a year ago which depresses me.

However, there are things I have to admit to you guys before I completely go. Me and Sunny's names are NOT actually Maddie and Sunny. Somewhat obvious I suppose. We were just to young with over protective parents to actually give out real information. Now however, we're not. Things have changed, as I said. We're even applying to highschool's now which brings our stress levels to the ultimate max. btw, please pray for us to get in

Now, about my tumblr, as you can find below, that is the current link. I don't plan on changing it any time soon. If you're looking for answers, look there. I don't know why, but I feel safer telling strangers about my life than actual people I know. I guess I feel as if you guys will judge me less. Sunny's blog can be found at www.blowfishie.tumblr.com, and its pretty awesome. I have more follows now than I had in years of blogspot(yes, I feel very loved). 102, to be exact.

I will continue posting here, just for the heck of it. This is indeed more a poetic writing site than tumblr where we mostly reblog.
And now I will finish with a poetic ending: .....wait no....nevermind, writing the thing about continuing to write here made me lose my train of thought....

....shit....

Okay. Now I know I haven't posted in 2 months. shame on me. but go to my new blogg ysaywonderwhyy.tumblr.com!!! it's so freaking fahmazing. (and i've already reached WAY more than 100 posts lol) THANK YOUU!!

104(105)

This is the 105th post. Really random lmfaoo.

Oh I don't know if I told you but today my teacher went on some field trip and we had two lunch waves :D happiness!!! I heart having two lunch waves btw. It's so fun cause you see the friends that you don't have lunch with. But today this was a fail because my friends went on the fieldtrip too. Fail huh? Oh and I found a lifeless friend. I'm not sure if i told you but my frans Jenny and Julianna have lifeless friends that talk to them every two friends. And both of their lifeless friends have names that start with J. But my lifeless friend has a name that starts with E. So I had to change his name to Joe. Go Joe! My lifeless friend! lmfaoo. Well Imma goo!!! Hearts!!!! <33333

The votee

Well the results are in and the winner isssss........................ suspenseful music........................drumroll please!!!!!!!!................my personal diaryy!!!! but that was a fail. an epic fail. cause that's what this blogg is.......so yes. whoever voted for that and didn't notice that that's what this blogg is. FAIL. EPIC FAIL. So because of that loser who voted to break it. Imma have to create another poll to find out what the next blogg will be. And the entries for the next poll with tying votes will be:
Fashion
My Hobbies
Cool Random Poems and random weird but cute stuff
...and
Random Stuffffff

So please vote. If you don't understand english and have actually not read this whole entire paragraph. I shall put it in espanol.
Vote para la proxima blogg.
Okay so it wasn't supreme spanish but heyy! I tried!!!
lol kkayss imma goo! hearts!!!! <333

Easter (:

Happy Easter everyone, even though I doubt anyone even reads this. I mean there are bazillions of blogs on blogspot. Well if you are reading this, comments? I feel like the longer I have this blogg, the less popular its getting. Isn't it supposed to be the other way around? Whatever. I'm pretty sure this is my 103 post. And I'm so excited cause I got family coming over today, cause It's easter and I don't know if I told you guys, but I'm gonna be an aunt!!! My brothers having a baby :DD So excited. So Imma see him and his gf today and theyre bringing the nephew for a dip in the pool.....not sure how thats gonna work out. its still pretty cold. W.e. and laters Anna, Julianna, Jennifer, and Karina are coming so im sooooo freaking happy. haven't seen most of them in a while. So todays gonna be a good day, maybe we'll post laters with one of our crazy posts. YOu know what? I sound more mellow today, but I'm not sure why. And honestly, I'm not sure I like it. Ugh. what's wrong with me latly?!?! w.e. talk to you guys laterss!! hearts!! <333

OMFG!!!!

I just realized that my last post was my 101st!!!! AAAAAAH!!!! well I finally made it!!!! So yes. I will make another blogg (lahve saying that) at 107. this is one-oh-two so we gotta keep counting!!!! So excited!!! hmmm....what should I make the new one about? Any ideas? If so, comment. Or vote on my new poll!!!! SO EXCITED :DDDDD gonna go!!! hearts!!!

hmmmm...

Well, I've been thinking that I really should be posting everyday. It would really help me to get more followers, which was never really the thing i was interested in in the first place. I think that posting everyda-APRIL FOOLS!!! aw come on. No one ACTUALLY expected me to post everyday now did they? I mean, it's been over a month since I posted last. Lots has happened. But there's way too much stuff going on to post it all in one post, so I won't tell you. I'll just skip it. As it comes up, I'll explain. So yea, me and Anna and Lexi went to the fair the other day. FUN. lmfaoo. yuppie. It was pretty fun. they had good rides. But the one we all got sick on- the littlest babiest ride called the spiders. I find this surprising for girls who ride wicked roller coaster. lmao. And while we were on that ride, Ana had to sit with this little five year old boy because it was a two seater ride and Lexi and I sat together. Anyways, whenever they got up really high and started spinning, the little boy would say "WOULDN'T IT BE SCARY IF THE RIDE BROKE AND WE FELL AND DIED!?!?!" .....now isn't that pleasant? Now, we went to the fair on wednesday, wouldn't there be school you ask? NO!!! cause it's spring break baby!!!! lol. And on tuesday, we went to the zoo and we heard these two little kids saying funny stuff. the one we were proud of: random little kid: MOMMY LOOK!! ITS AND UNDERWEAR!!! random mother: NO HONEY! THATS A CONDOR!!! random little kid: NO!! ITS AN UNDERWEAR!!!! little kid we were not so proud of: other random little kid: MOMMY LOOK!!! IM A VAMPIRE BECAUSE MY SKIN SHINES IN THE SUN!!!! yea. what in the world is twilight teaching these children?!?! that's just not right. lmfaoo. so excited for sunday. Not cause it's easter. But because Julianna, Jennifer, and Karina are coming over :) happiness. cause i get to hang out with all mi biffles before going back to school. lmfaoo. talk to you guys soon. hopefully I'll remember to post. Remind me by commenting!!!!! hearts!!

why is a raven like a writing desk?

Okay if you know me well, or if you looked at my last post, you know I'm OBSESSED with alice in wonderland. no seriously! If I could change my name to Alice I would :D anyways, I was looking at quotes from the book and here are a some:

Alice:Curiouser and curiouser!
The Cat:We're all mad here.
The Hatter:Why is a raven like a writing desk?
The Queen:Off with her head!
Alice:If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't. And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn't be. And what it wouldn't be, it would. You see? (favorite quote btw :))
Alice:It was much pleasanter at home, when one wasn't always growing larger and smaller, and being ordered about by mice and rabbits
Alice:Well! I've often seen a cat without a grin; but a grin without a cat! It's the most curious thing I ever say in my life!

those are just some of the quotes :) and their amazingness. I lahve lahve lahve aiw so yea. cause it all makes sense in its own twisted sort of way!!! :) when i think bout it i just have to smile so I will leave you all smiling :)with some hearts as well! hearts!!

AAAAHHH!!! (the second panic attack)

OMFG OMFG OMFG OMFG OMFG!!!! ALICE IN WONDERLAND IS OUT!!!! I SAW IT WITH LIZA AND MI ODA FRAN AND IT WAS FAHMAZING X 777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777777 AND A WHOLE LOT MORE SEVENS!!!!!!!!! BEST MOVIE IN THE HISTORY OF THE WORLD!!! WHEN IT STARTED I WAS LIKE HYPERVENTILATING FROM EXCITEMENT!!! AAAAAAAAHHH!!!! IT WAS SOOOOOO FRICKING FAMAZING X ALL OF THOSE SEVENS UP THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMFG OMFG OMFG OMFG OMFG OMFG OMFG OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD GONNA GO!!!! HEARTS!!!!!

Bob and Phil

Well idk if i told you already but lol looks like a guy drowning. well anyways, me and Anna named him bob and on facebook there is a guy named bob who is taking over the world. Well anyways, bob has an enemy named Phil. Phil eats bobs. But bob has a big story to go with him that we told our old geography teacher mr. c. i'll tell you the story next post!!! byes peopleessss. hearts!!! <333